Earlier this year I joined a choir. Out of the blue, I’ve never been in a choir before, am pretty average at singing and apart from playing the trumpet to Grade 1 in primary school I don’t have a very musical background.
I wanted something I could do for me, something I could feel part of, practise and get better at and something that would make me happy more than sitting around the house was doing.
Choir was definitely it. The pop songs we sing are all uplifting and fun, the words are easy to learn, our director Emily is really relaxed and has a fun attitude that always sets a great vibe at practise.
I’ve performed at a charity ball, a village fete, a walk for life and today a retail parks 1st first birthday!
But very recently I’ve been having a silent battle with myself about whether I’m really cut out to be in a choir.
It all started when someone said very loudly one week at practise that I was singing too low, I knew I hadn’t got the notes quite right but they made a really big deal of it at the time. I hadn’t gone the week before because work was really stressful and so I was already feeling anxious that I wouldn’t know what they were singing so that really stuck with me.
Each week since this I’ve been conscious not to sing too loudly next to this person unless I know for sure I’m on the right note. There were two social events this week and the one I was meant to go to I didn’t because this person has made me feel insecure which meant I just didn’t feel confident enough to sit and have a drink with all of them. Choir practise I can manage but sitting chatting, nope it wasn’t happening.
Today was my first gig with choir in a little while and we had about 4 new songs but two of them were George Ezra who I love so I was feeling pretty good and ready to go.
There were about 20 of us in total and we sounded great! I stood next to the person whose comments had stuck in my head for the last few weeks and sang my heart out. When we came off the stage everyone said to each other how pleased we were with the performance along with our director.
I love singing with my choir, for some reason I let this person’s comments stick in my head for all this time when I shouldn’t have done.
I’m feeling so proud of our performance today I do have a video of us but for some reason I can’t seem to share it! Hopefully I’ll be able to figure it out later on and get it up on here for you all to see 😊
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