Ballet · feeling proud · happy · motherhood · Mums · Parenting · Uncategorized

Bursting with prideĀ 

I love being a parent, yes it has it’s stressful times, moments where you wonder if they will ever stop talking, normality will ever be regained or a meal will ever be eaten without a play buggy being parked at the side of the table but I have to admit I really do love being a Mum.

T makes me proud on a daily basis but the last week she has really blown me away. So it started last Saturday when we went swimming with some of our friends and T discovered all the new skills she learnt on holiday could be used back home and she wasn’t scared anymore. Infact she was trying to show her friend just how easy it was to put her head under the water! (This is the same girl that would cry if she got splashed a few months ago!)

Sunday we took T riding, she was a little nervous as it had been 3 weeks since her last lesson due to our holiday. The lesson had one of the biggest groups I’ve ever seen and at the start it didn’t go so well when she forgot a turn. After that things picked up and they ended up playing tig on horseback! T was giggling away and you could see she was really enjoying herself, it really was just lovely to watch.

All lined up ready for lesson to begin!

Yesterday was her weekly ballet lesson and we were looking forward to going as we thought she might find out about her exam results. Well after the lesson she comes running out with her certificate and she got a Distinction! šŸ˜ I’m so proud of her, She really does love ballet and sees the exams as just another part of the lessons, there is no stress or worry at all. We checked back on her 3 previous exams and this is the highest mark she’s achieved and the most complex exam. Needless to say she got massive cuddles and kisses after this!

Yesterday was a busy one so right after we got back from ballet we had a super quick turnaround and T was off to the school disco! Yes it does seem like I live my life for T but I honestly wouldn’t have it any other way, she’s my mini me, my tiny best friend and my little ray of sunshine and I would be lost without her ā¤ 

Family · making memories · motherhood · Parenting · Uncategorized

Why the build up to our holiday is so bittersweet

Now we are down to under a week until our holiday we are all feeling ready. Ready for adventure, sunshine, a pool and a beach and most of all just ready to be together. 

We love spending time together as a family more than anything else in the world. Making happy memories and building a childhood for T is what our days off and time together is all about. The work Scott does means this time is even more precious because usually public holidays and fun family events like Halloween, Easter, and every weekend he has to work. We are used to this routine now and use this time to have all the more fun Mummy and T days, but when she knows Scott will be off too she gets super excited. It’s amazing for me to see the bond they have now, it’s like a love that has grown over the years they have known each other and is now blossoming into something long lasting and wonderful.

Now as we are going away for a week with her it was only fair she see her Dad for 2 nights this weekend instead of one. Not only that but then Monday and Tuesday night too, Just so he gets to spend lots of time with her before we go. 

So Sunday night T will be home for a big family bbq, she will have friends to play with and the house will be busy and full. Monday morning I will take her to school and I won’t see that gorgeous little face again until Wedsnesday evening after work.

Now this was all my idea so what am I feeling so sad about? 

This is the right thing to do.

We have to share, she enjoys going and spending time there so this is good for her too.

All this is true but it still doesn’t mean I will miss her any less. She has been away with him for a week before and it hurt like hell but it was made better by the fact I knew she was enjoying herself. I think this is worse because I know she will only be at school during the day. I think I just need to focus on getting ready for the holiday and fitting in as many workouts as I can to feel as good about myself as possible before I go. Walking Poppy will help as a distraction too as I will still walk her in the mornings like I would do on a normal school day. 

I just need to think once I have that little body back in my arms she is ours all ours for a whole week and then the fun can really begin. 

Family · making memories · motherhood · Parenting · philosophy · Thankful · thoughtful · Uncategorized

Finding time to make memories because life is short

These days time is even more in short supply, with the constraints of a working life, hobbies, keeping relationships with friends close, adding in playdates for your children and just generally maintaining your house where do you find time to make memories and just have fun? 

We are all guilty of just wanting to sit and zone out while we mindlessly scroll through pages of social media, it’s just the way people relax these days but it’s far too easy to forget our little people grow so quickly and are not little for long. Time is precious and so even if it’s for a few minutes at a time I always make sure I take the time to put my phone down and actually listen to what T has to say, properly listen. 

Only when we are fully in the moment can happy memories be made and fun times had. 

Like when I climbed the tree house Sunday to eat my ice cream with T, there was no social media, no distractions, just for a few minutes it was just us two eating ice creams in her den. Perfect.

Don’t get me wrong little people can talk, and talk, and talk about mostly pointless things but sometimes it does us good to just listen. To remember what it is like to be little and how important it is to cherish those funny things they say because one day they will realise how silly they sound and stop saying them. 

T a couple of weeks ago ‘I am growing up you know Mummy!!’ We couldn’t stop laughing! 

So take a minute, inbetween loads of washing, on the way to school, after dinner and homework to just appreciate the little things, build those happy memories because life is short and moments matter.

RIP to the zookeeper that lost her life yesterday at the zoo we happened to be visiting at the time. 

Make every minute count, You never know what is round the corner.

Ballet · hobbies · motherhood · Uncategorized · walking · walking for fitness

16 miles, a ballet exam and a happy girl.

So this week was another tough one at the start with lots of short walks due to bad weather but I made up for it as much as I could on my days off racking up 6 miles yesterday! It felt so nice to walk a different route and actually get a tiny bit lost at times. I knew roughly where I was all the time but trying to find the exact way home was a little challenge that I think I needed to push myself to rack up the miles. Throw in a short walk with Tiana and Poppy this afternoon and my weekly total is 16.2 miles! 

I’m so pleased I’m well on my way to my target of 60 miles this month with just over a week to go so if next week is a good one I might even break 60 miles! Still can’t believe how much I’m enjoying walking, It’s not costing me anything, I’m building my fitness and I’m still finding new routes from my house. I feel so lucky to live where I do with so many nice paths to explore all within my reach.

This morning was also very exciting because T had a ballet exam that she had been preparing for a long time. I felt like I should be part of dance moms being up at 7am on a Sunday to plait and clip her hair into the neatest, most hairsprayed ballet bun possible! T is too small to be nervous yet which is great so we just get one excited little girl ready to try her best for the examiner! There was a group of 3 and they all had solo parts also but all in all the whole thing only took about 10 minutes at the most. The best part was when they all came out smiling ear to ear really happy with their performances. Some people would wonder why I would want to give up my Sunday morning to put T through an exam at only 7 years old but that is why  because she loves it! She was so happy after her performance and so pleased with how she had done there was no stress or anxiety and not a single hint of worry. Some people may say that she will never be a ballerina but neither will a lot of the girls that go to her dance school but for me it’s not about that. It’s about a hobby that she enjoys learning and having fun doing and as long as she wants to continue ballet I will continue to give up my Sunday morning lie ins to ready her for exams.

My little ballerina
Ballet bun hairsprayed within an inch of its life!
motherhood · Uncategorized · work life balance

When is life too busy?

So as my fitness journey continues and I carry on racking up the miles I find I’m enjoying it more and more. I look forward to walking and will walk as far as I can in the time I have walking at least once a day. This is still alongside my regular kettlebell workouts at home, working 3 days a week, being a Mum and wife, keeping social engagements and remembering birthdays and anniversaries. So today I’m thinking when does life get too busy? 

When do we say enough is enough I’m going to stop trying to keep in touch with so many people all the time and just see who comes to me? When we have so many balls in the air how often do we feel like at some point they will all come crashing down? When I find someone who deserves my time I give generously whether in person or via text or phone. I try my hardest to remember special events and birthdays and will always make an effort to celebrate these as much as my budget allows but when you have so many plates spinning when does it all just become too much? 

Trying to be a good friend, who exercises and is aiming to achieve her own goals can I really be the best mother I can be? When I find I haven’t read the school book all week but instead I’ve taught T the value of money by setting her small chores which she enjoys doing to earn pocket money in the schools eyes am I not doing enough for her education? When we have walked the dog together or gone for a bike ride, when I’m remembering to clean her ears, washing her hair, taking nail varnish off her toes and listening to her day I have always got a part of my mind on other things. It could be writing the virtual shopping list in my mind, planning the chores I will do when I have my day off, trying to remember what meat I need to defrost for tomorrow’s meal or trying to plan new and exciting things for everyone’s lunch boxes! 

I often think if my mind wasn’t so busy maybe I would just enjoy the moment more and feel less tense. Am I wrong trying to keep all these balls in the air or is this just life when you get to my age? Now I’m a grown up all married with a child is this just how it goes? Now my friends are all in similar situations so I know I’m not alone as planning get togethers and playdates takes military precision and is usually weeks in advance so I’m pretty sure everyone has multiple balls when it comes to motherhood but when you add in a work life balance, trying to fit in a new hobby and keep in contact with everyone important to you on a regular basis has everyone’s life just become too busy these days?

What ever happened to a friend just popping in for coffee or being able to text a few different people knowing at least one of them would be free for a catch up? Don’t get me wrong I love to have plans but on the other hand I often think if we upped and moved somewhere far away where I could walk in the hills all the time and knew no one would I feel less swamped or more lonely? My life seems to be zooming along in a haze of happy memories and cherished times but sometimes I just feel like I don’t have time to really sit back and appreciate it all. 

I’d love to hear your thoughts, 

Thanks for reading 

Lou x